6 years of bullshit

i had to deal with 6 years of lies a guy who tell me delete my number im done with you but always comes back i want you out of my life but you just keep coming back i feel like i know nothing about you id catfish your stupid ass but i dont wanna see you face id fucking spit in it kick you and punch you show you the pain i felt ive always been insecure you didn’t help that i fucking hate you i have all these fucking things to say about you but i none of it will help i just want to be happy not having anyone clouding up my bright blue sky why cant ex just stay out of you life

crazy how it works

i find it funny that younger guys think you dont know what there trying to do bitch i was in your shoes once you obvious as hell you want sex and i dont get the point back off

confused

i wanna meet you again but idk he wasnt very open and i like a guy whos open he rapped the whole time and i just dont know what to think all my bi polar emotions are going crazy

so tired of

the people who think they know me but really dont i cant even post anything on fb anymore cuz everyone is so worried about me dont hurt yourself we care about you if you really fucking cared you would come to me make sure im fine and then fucking move on i mean shit i cant even post videos anymore every time im annoyed or even a bit pissed people want to help but when im fucking so close to the point of ending my life no one seems to give a fuck it seems like no body cares unless there is  drama in it

death

you never really realize how short life is until someone close to you dies i spent my whole life fearing it thinking about it 

a rose has many petals much like life but one day that flowers dies and another grows in its place

lifes a cunt a big ol nasty one

and your the reason for it 

im cinderella, in a much more fucked up world

i constantly do shit for people but never really have time to do my own thing i find it crazy because  we grow up thinking life is gonna be so easy but once we grow up and realize what life is, we try to so hard to help other people learn it but they dont and never will but there is something in everyone that gives us hope that knowing one day we will be something great we just have to find it hold and never stop believing in it. ever since i was a little girl i wanted to be something great i wanted everyone to one day know my name and all my life ive had people tell me oh you not good enough for that here let me show you how to do it right and by doing that i didn’t learn somethings i needed to learn when i was 7 i was raped after that things kept getting worse my parents divorced we moved constantly at one point of time i was in a foster home again all this at such an early age i grew up scared always wondering what was next a couple years later these doctor told me i had adhd i was anti-social and that i had bipolar i spent years trying medications that didn’t work by age 14 i was done trying taking pills to make me better and after a while i noticed the adhd go away and i though the bi polar would decrease but it never did im 18 years old now ive spent 18 years of my life trying to figure it out at this point im supposed to have my life stable but at this point im just getting what it all means im scared to death for whats ahead but yet i cant wait to see whats next

life

you work constantly and only to make people happy but no on ever appreciates it